What to do, what to do

I got an email a few days. Being the romantic that I am, I sort of wish it had been a letter, but email will have to do in this technozoic age in which we reside. This email could change things. A lot of things. Let's face it, this email could change everything. Right now it's sitting in my inbox...I haven't even opened it because I don't need to. I know what it says. It says, "Sarah, here's a shot at changing everything."

Now that's a pretty bold statement for an email, even for something as weighty as a letter, but nonetheless, there it sits...waiting....waiting for me to respond with yes or no...or nothing at all.

At least in the last few years, there has been this growing longing within me to be more nomadic, to let go a bit and broaden my world view. There are so many ties keeping me from this, though...some natural, and some I've created. These ties are strong, almost elastic. They let me get a little space and then yank me back. I love them, I do, but I don't know how to loosen their grip on me. Can I let go of what I don't really have control over in the first place?

I want to go. I want to stay. I want to go and be assured that everything will stay the same, waiting for my return. I want to stay and still my wandering heart. I want, I won't. I can, I can't. But I will...?